He loves me

Howard and I met in February 2004. I was less than impressed as the only things he said to me in that short first meetng were impolite and on the verge of being mean. But, it is in my nature to forgive and to give second and third chances to strangers. Maybe he was just having a bad day?

Our second meeting was a small group of us, in which he and I both remained rather quiet and our friends talked. But it was probably a good thing that he didn't say anything in case he might have had another similar incident such as our first encounter.

After our first two meetings, time kind of slips together. We saw eachother more and I still thought very little of him in an affectionate kind of way and enjoyed the company of other people in the mutual group. Mianly, he had that "I'm too tough" attitude. But he was always the most gentlemanly host, making sure his guests were always comfortable.

We chatted online durring the summer of 05 and probabaly the most I ever learned about him was durring that time sending messages back and forth. When Fall semester of 2005 started Howard and I hung out a little bit more just one on one and I was completely fasinated by his rough exterior and clearly softer interior.

By early September I had quite the crush on him. I liked his blunt honesty to everyone, something I have never been able to do as I am too shy. He always says just what I want to but can't. Howard told me later that he had thought I was stunning when he first saw me but knew he'd have to let things play out before anything could happen between us.

By September 10, 2005 we were officially dating. Our friends said we'd never last. I didn't think so originally either. I was a sweet, innocent, Christian, virgin and he was an experienced, obnoxious, Athiest. Naturally, we've had our ups and downs but nothing that can't eventually be worked out.

But since we started dating we have both changed. We are both open to new things. He attends church with me every weekend. And we are perfect mathces for eachother. He is my best friend and the love of my life. We never fight or argue and he is sensative to my feelings. When we do dissagree things can be talked out and set right in a matter of minutes.

We have been dating ten months in July. We agreed to exchange "promise rings" for our 1 year anniversary. He wants a short engagement and since neither of us want to be married until after college (at least 3 years) promise rings will do until we can actualy get married.

Our friends say we're young. I don't think we're that young. I'm 21, he's 20. In 3 years we'll be 23 and 24. Of course a lot can change in that amount of time and I'm willing to accept changes both for the good and the bad. I suppose I can not guarantee that we will be together forever, but at this moment, everything is wonderful and I plan to keep it that way.