Proving her wrong

What is the last thing anyone needs? Well, for me the last thing I need is someone who doesn't believe in me. Especially a family member.

My dad informed me today that my mom's mom... so my grandmother who died in February 2005... said I would never make it through college. She said I wasn't a "go getter." She said I'd get distracted and drop out, just like my mom had. She said I couldn't make it and that I never would.

I don't know why she said those things. Clearly she never knew that I loved college classes. That already I've learned so much and made myself a "more valuable member of society." Why would a grandmother said their grand children couldn't make it. Shouldn't you have the highest regard for you offspring? Howard's mom does the same thing to him all the time and it always makes me mad. No parent or grandparent should ever tell thier children they can't make it. It's very unfair.

I don't know... I found out and I just feel so dissapointed in myself. Why should I feel dissapointed? At least I'm in college. At least I'm doing well. I'm having fun. I feel like I let everyone down.

I wish they hadn't told me she'd said that. I'm just so hurt by it... All I want to do is curl up in my bed for the day and not wake up for a long while.